Last wednesday (a week ago today) we said goodbye to our sweet Solomon. I think that I have alluded to the fact that he hasn't been well, and when I wrote my last post it was from bed, where I spent all of Tuesday cuddling him. I have always struggled with the fact that I might have to choose the time to end Solomon's life, but by the end of the day last Tuesday he let me know. I can't describe it, it was a look in his eyes and his struggle to get comfortable even in bed (his favourite place). He knew it was time, and so did I. I read an article recently, written by a lady who let her old dog go too, and what she said is that she was giving him the gift of freedom. Freeing him from his old broken body, so his spirit could run free. That's what I choose to believe we did with Solomon.
To say that I am heartbroken, would be a massive understatement. Solomon was the embodiment of unconditional love, and the light he shone in my life is irreplaceable. I would like to write a post about how incredibly amazing he was, and how exceptionally connected we were, but I'm just not ready yet. It's been a week, and I still can't think about him, or say his name without bursting into tears. I feel this heart-wrenching loneliness, that is hard to describe, and seems silly because I am still surrounded by dogs and people that I love.
John has been so great putting up with my constant tears. I know that he is heartbroken too, but he hides it better than I do. I guess I just wanted to let you all know. Solomon has been such a big part of my life, and has been featured/talked about on this blog so many times, that it didn't feel right not to tell you. I may post about it again when I feel stronger, or I may not. Just know that Solomon was the best dog ever and I love(d) him with all of my heart.
I have been doing lots of sewing, trying to keep my mind off things, so expect to see some more sewing posts soon. I find the best way to heal is to just get on with things, so that's what I've been doing.
Hug your loved ones close.
